This kind of feeling!

After almost two months of silence, I am again back here.

I applied for a temporary job as an English tutor for Koreans at a local language center and got accepted. Work started on January 4 and lasted until yesterday, January 26. Anyway, it was my first experience to work with Koreans but I managed to get along well with them considering that Koreans have this kind of inward attitude and sort of xenophobia.

And what about the salary? It is good. I was able to buy new shoes, some clothes and most of all good and high quality socks. I love this feeling of warmth and softness...It just makes me feel secure and it is afterall, my security, blanket.

The Karmic Bitch-Slap

Curious about moving on spreads, I looked for something I could work on before the actual dump off begins. There is a guy whom I like very much and our feelings for each other are very mutual but these days he's been going on and off, emails unreplied, sms ignored. Yes ,I am a sucker for long distance relationships. But it seems to me that I still haven't learned my lesson yet!

So I searched for a very empowering spread and found this at aeclectic.net: A spread for those who've been unceremoniously dumped by total A-Holes!

This is the perfect tarot spread after a horrible dump up. What it so nice about this is that it has a card for the Karmic Bitch-Slap!

I won't get into the specifics here, but in case you want to know what would be this "guy's" Karmic Bitch-Slap in case he dumps me unmercifully: The Moon.


What I can see in this card is total confusion and most of all a very untrusting situation. This guy will sure have a hard time getting a bf someday because potential lovers will doubt him so much in the end and in turn dump him at the end. Ouch!

Monkey Education

I am presently reading a slightly volatile article from a back-issue of Harper's Magazine about the dehumanization of education, that is, shifting the focus from the humanities and arts to math and science. Which is of course harrowing.

College was simply a torture to me because aside from the fact that I was forced to take up nursing, I had to bear the ugly truth that the university where I attended had slashed of it Introduction to Humanities subject and replaced it with the dire and yawn-producing subjects like Science, Technology and Society, much worse are the "religious studies", which I know would get to the nerves of any atheist and agnostic. Well, I will tackle this religion stuff later, ok?

The thing is that schools right now are aiming to the churn their students to be proficient in math and science. This is is when you look at school programs. Math and science is the way to go, but where are the music lessons? The humanities? I don't have anything with math and science but the thing is too much focus on these subjects would rather create robots than human beings that can appreciate the world around them.

Meditation Twitches

I listened to a meditation session by Bob Decker and in the middle part of the session, I felt my body so relaxed and heavy. Then my lower limbs began jerking. It was so weird at first that I got a bit nervous. But I think it was the muscles. They were so relaxed that they jerked. I think it's like the last jerk when one is about to give his/her last breath. I saw that in hospitals where I worked before.

Somehow it's strange!

I think my spirit went out f my body during that meditation!

Doing it the Tarot Way

It's been a while since I posted or written about my newest passion: Tarot cards.



This has sparked some interest to my hospital co-workers especially to ladies. Common questions would be "What is the current state of my love life?" or "When will I find a lover or boyfriend?". The list could go on and on and on. Well, there were some situations I predicted that already happened and it is quite amazing how the tarot works. Maybe I should get a living from it?

But when I read for myself, it's different. I have a hard time getting the cards read my near future. It's like reading German in it's highest order and that I don't understand any word at all! Sometimes it can be very confusing when this and that card appears, especially in my Love Department. Who is this Knight of Cups? The Queen on Wands?

The journey to be a student of Tarot had just begun and I am quite glad that I chose this path to self-enlightenment and direction.

Trouble is a Friend

This is the official video of Lenka's "Trouble Is A Friend" song:



It's a slightly melancholic song with a tortured like lyrics. Well, what more could I expect? I think it speaks of my feelings at this moment which, which is a mixture of pain, happiness, regret, hope. Quite bewildering!

Threats to Productivity

Now don't be surprised.

I've been working terribly on how my English should look and sound. But sometimes there are moments when, in the middle of my intense reformation act, I am tempted to chat on facebook, peep some profiles on dating sites and reply to silly sms to my friends. The modern age is indeed full of distractions!

It makes me wonder sometimes how my day flies past. Then I would cringe at the fact that my day was wasted in facebook and sms. Really? And if I compare how productive I was, let's say, five years ago, I would have dropped my jaw down to the ground.